Yesterday morning I go up feeling like I could sleep for a lot longer than what I did. thinking that Tom was going to get up with me, I had every intention of getting the dishes done, getting Piper ready for school, getting myself ready and getting the rent paid. Seems like a lot, but, really, it wasn't all that much to do. Instead, it did not happen that way, and then it put me in a mood where I just wanted to spit nails at someone. Overall it was a good day at work, two new clients (which is always nice to see and meet new people and hopefully help them to feel better), had a good lunch, ate way to much beef. But, on the drive home, I found myself not wanting to feel like that anymore. I couldn't find anything to listen to make me feel better, I had listened to 90's dance music, 70's music, Indian music, even stuff that the Dali Lama listens to, and nothing would help. I turned the radio down and started to talk to myself. I don't think I had done my affirmations that morning, so I had to do them at night before I got home. I don't like going home and acting like a shit to Piper, she and Tomy deserve better of me.
I had been thinking that I need a sign that things are going to get better. By this time, I was nearly home and the radio was on. I was calming down when, all of the sudden, I hear those first chords of George Michael's Faith. I smiled, OK, I have to have faith. After that, the evening was better than I thought it would be. So now, I think that's my sign. I have made Faith my new theme song for the weekend... I shall put it on my ipod and blast it all day long.. besides, George Michael was great to listen to. My second favorite song was Freedom... Love that voice!
I'm still feeling that Angst-ish feeling... Restless and moody. I hate that. I would like to say it has to do with the weather, but, it seems like a cop out to say that. I just need something.. but what?
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