Saturday Nights

Saturday nights used to be a time when I would spend my night seeing how many drinks it would take to get me totally drunk. Now, I spend my nights with my sweet little girl who is 6 years old and my boyfriend. Tonight, we are watching Galaxy Quest and eating Mexican food... my personal favorite. Tomy is now on the couch snoring, but, I think of it as he's getting a nap for later. I intend on keeping him up a little late :)

I sometimes think of how I got to this place in life. It used to be much different, before Piper and Thomas and Kelsie. Before I liked myself and before I liked life. I used to spend my nights drinking as heavily as possible, and seeing if I could pick up any willing male to sleep with. It was a life that I was not proud of, but, I was young and having so much fun at the time. And then, after about 6 months of drinking and partying, the money was running out and my friend had a boyfriend and the guy I was sleeping with at the time was no longer interested. So, I decided that in order for me to get out while I was still somewhat ahead, I joined the US Navy... little did I know who that would change everything else in my life. I never met more alcoholics and drug addicts than when I was in the Navy.

It was a great time in life for me. I was learning so much, and I really didn't drink for the first part of the time that I was in. I didn't have my phase three liberty until I was in the Navy for at least 4 months, I think... it was 2 + months of boot camp, and then another month of common Core... so ok, maybe three months. And even when I did drink, it wasn't like I would spend the whole weekend drunk.. Just, like most of it.

When I got to my first ship, I drank like a fish. It was amazing the amount of alcohol I consumed!! All I can really say is that I'm glad that part of life is done! Now I just drink to have a nice glass of wine with dinner.

I don't miss the drinking or the drugs, I don't miss that lifestyle, but, I don't regret it either. I can look back at my 20's and say wow, what a wild ride. It was great to be old enough to know better and young enough not to care at all.

This Saturday night, we ate some good food, watched a funny movie and watched videos on YouTube. From drinking and blacking out to telling Shorty to go brush her teeth and the tooth fairy, I would say life is so much more rewarding and happy now. I am loving my 30's. Can't wait to see what the next year will bring... maybe my best yet. So much going on for me, so much to look forward to. The best is yet to come!!